I am a.....

So I have decided to start blogging about.....whatever is on my mind.  I'm pretty new to this though so we will see how it works out! 

I've decided to start my blog off with my newest challenge, the true test of a military wife, being without him!  Him being my best friend, my soul mate, my partner in crime, my husband.  I have always felt like I bared most of the responsibility in our home, but boy was I WRONG!  Wow, I never realized how much I depended on Mike, until he was gone.  Now, this is not the first time I have had to deal with deployments, but it is the first time I have had little to no communication with him.  I never realized how much "venting" to him in the evening meant, until I couldn't do it.  Now, it's all emails and those are few and far between.  I know he has a lot on his mind, so I don't want to bother him with the trivial things that may only make him feel guilty for not being here.  He has enough to worry about, without worrying whether or not we are bored or lonely.   

It does not matter how hard you try to prepare yourself, mentally, physically, emotionally, or financially, for something like this, it is never enough.  Going into this I though "it's only for 3 years", now I'm thinking "OMG!  It's only been a week!"  Seriously, what kind of wife would I be to get use to being away from my husband?  It's not even natural! 

So growing up in a house with a daddy that two girls and was a serious handyman, doing things like cutting grass, changing light bulbs, and plunging the toilet were not things I learned to do.  Hell, my daddy didn't even want us to do it!  I'm pretty sure his theory was "if you want it done right, do it yourself".  So I find myself realizing how much I have relied on my husband all these years to do this things that I never had to do growing up and at the same time raising two children, one with special needs.  Meantime, I'm also trying to maintain some kind of social life to keep from going crazy or turning into a 10 year old due to the lack of adult communication. 

So, keeping all of this, and more, in mind, I have asked myself the question "what am I?"  Am I a mother or father?  Am I a nurse or a doctor?  Am I a friend or a counselor?  Am I an electrician or a plumber?  Am I a cook or a housekeeper?  My answer to all of this is "yes"!  I am all of the above and more......and I would not have it any other way!